I know its cliche but it’s amazing how fast kids grow up. It might be that I’m not at home as much as I was with Tae but Canon is growing so much faster than she did. He’s bigger than her for sure.

I love going home and kissing Amber and the kids and just having a little time to play with them before they go to bed. It would be nice if I could be home more and see them more often but for some reason the world doesn’t work that way. I look forward to vacation time when I can spend all day with my family and just enjoy their company.

I’ve come the realization this past couple weeks that I haven’t been the best husband or father. I’m thinking too much about work and not enough about them. I have this enormous list over my head of all the things that I haven’t done or aren’t doing that I know I should be doing. A lot of them are things I think of but then just ignore and think if I work harder (for money) life will be better and some of those things will just disappear off my list. I know I really can’t be home much more than I already am. It’s not like I work til midnight at the office or anything. It’s more mentally. I need to think of them more. I need to write on this blog more of all the wonderful things about having a beautiful wife, and pretty little chillins. So that’s what I’m working on, thinking of my family more and what I can do for them beside making the money. There you have it, I’m becoming a new man.

Taesya and Canon

19 months separate Canon and Taesya. People say that’s really close, which is true. But I am so glad they’re close, because that’s what they’ve become - Close. They are the best of friends.

Ben and Tae are camping right now, so Can and I are on our own. I can tell he’s as lonely as I am, since both of our best friends are gone. He looks around for something that’s missing, but can’t really put into words what he’s looking for. ‘Where’s Tae Tae?’ he’s thinking.

Their relationship is rocky at times, I have to say. But to Taesya, nothing is funny without Canon, no toy is neat, unless Canon wants it, too. Together, dancing is better, eating is yummier, running is more exciting - Canon and Taesya love being a team. I feel like the luckiest mom in the world, seeing them talk and sing, just the two of them.

Tae, be nice to your little brother, k? He really thinks you’re great. And someday you’ll really want a brother to talk to. Can-O, don’t bug Taesya too much, give her some space every now and then. But you can still try to be like her, cuz she’s a really good kid.