The Name Game

Amber Amber Bo Bamber Banana Fanna Fo Famber Mi My Mo Mamber - AMBER! (Take a second to sing your version of the name game, it will make you smile.)

The 20 week ultrasound was Wednesday; everything looked great! And we are having a boy. I'm glad, pleased... Boys are a little tough for me. Well, Canon being almost two years old is tough for me. We just aren't the best of friends right now. But when he's sleeping, or when he's actually clean, or saying "lub you" -- Those moments I can handle.

Usually we have a name solidified withing 24 hours after the gender reveal, but this time we are stumped. We have names, lists and lists and lists of names, but after 3 or 4 days of systematically analyzing each one - here we are nameless. So, if you have any suggestions... Our requirements are as follows:

1. Name must fit an infant, a teenager, and a fully grown adult.
2. Less common names get bonus points.

Any genius ideas would be appreciated. But honestly, we've got time. As everyone keeps telling me - Plenty of Time.

And I Miss You

Ben is at Scout Camp, somewhere in the mountains. He's hiking, fishing, and eating dry foods.

We are still here, where we always are. Playing, working, getting by better than I thought we could without him.

But I miss that Ben guy. I've grown accustomed to his face. I don't know the last time I went so long without even a phone call from him. Even though he drives me nuts sometimes, I sure wish he'd come back and never leave again. But honestly, it's good to know that I can do it on my own. (Not financially, of course.) But now I know I can survive, that if I lean on Heavenly
Father, I can do just fine.

Some defining moments in my life: Pioneer Trek, AP Calculus, and Scout Camp 2008

Dream

It was a boy. He was so tiny and adorable and quiet. I was just going about my life carrying him around when he showed some interest in the red punch Taesya was drinking. She gave some to him and he drank like a child dying of thirst. Then it hit me - I hadn't fed him. When was the last time I had? What day was it? We'd been home from the hospital a week already!?! I only remember feeding him once.

So I fed that sweet little boy and he fell asleep satisfied. But it just ripped out my heart that he had suffered in silence for so long. What a terrible mother I was. Living my life like normal while my son was starving...

*** These are the dreams you have when you're pregnant. This was my first one this time around. When I woke up I just held Taesya and patted her hair while she watched tv. Am I ready for this new baby? Parenthood scares the heck out of me sometimes.